The other day we were getting into the van after being out and Gage asked me where Blankie was. I told him "It's at home." He said, "No, not at home. At the new house."
I miss my old kitchen. I have a lovely kitchen here, but it's just not the same. I loved baking in that kitchen. I haven't found my groove yet in my new one.
I miss the familiarity of Ames. I know where things are around town, and I know exactly where everything is I need at Super-Walmart.
I think it all started this morning when I heard Eli waking up at around 5am...Long story short, he did not go back to sleep with me in my bed.
And then it was a hectic morning of getting everybody ready so Gage and I could make it to the library for story time, and getting the house in decent shape for the next-door babysitter's first time here to take care of Eli! Gage and I made it to the library right on time...only to find out that the toddler story time there is every other Thursday. I was so disappointed! I went through all that and am paying a babysitter for nothing really, and on and on, grumble, grumble. I tried to quickly snap out of it and enjoy the time I had one-on-one with Gage anyway. We had fun reading books and enjoying the wonderful Arlington Heights library. We even had the entire children's section to ourselves for awhile.
Then another mom and her two small children came. And inwardly I wanted to pounce! Where do you live? Do you come here often? How bout a playdate?? But I played it cool and chatted a little. I was trying to figure out how I could get to know her better without looking desperate! But I couldn't, so we left and I hoped to see her there again sometime. Funny how this is sounding like a girl-meets-boy thing! Starting new friendships is similar I guess.
I have known that it will take time to meet people and develop relationships, but I am lonely today.
It's just one of those days.
BUT I did get something in the mail today that made me smile...
A little disc of our family photo shoot taken before we moved...
Oh yeah, these can surely brighten a day!
1 comment:
Oh Heid! This one brings tears to my eyes. My heart aches for you during this transition time of changes. I know it won't last long, but it's so hard just the same. Praying for you.
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