Wednesday, September 2, 2009

A Confession...

I am an over-protective worry wart of a mother!

And I don't want to be this way! I know I need to give all of my worries and fears to the Lord. I know that He is in control. I know that His Word tells me not to worry and fear, that those feelings are not of God. I know these things and I still worry! I do have confidence that God will answer my prayers if I trust that He will.

In the meantime this is what I think about...that when Gage is not in my care he may find something in someone's house and choke on it. That he will get hurt somehow when no one is looking. That he will be sad, scared, confused without me there.

The good news is that I am working on it! First of all, I am devoting time each day to pray! I am also going to start swapping childcare on a weekly basis with a friend from church, which I am very excited about! And this weekend we are leaving Gage overnight with Grandma E while Craig and I spend a night at a Bed & Breakfast in the area. That was my idea by the way! And I am excited about it and dreading it at the same time...

Does anyone have similar experiences? Was it worse with your firstborn? How have you overcome your worries and fears?

3 comments:

Laura said...

No advice, Heidi! I have 4 and it is a daily struggle for me...worrying that something will happen to one of them. Truth be told all of their worst "tumbles" or scary things have happened with me being within an arm's reach of them! :) Some of the anxiety does get better with each child, and as they get older. You don't worry as much about choking, etc. Good for you for taking a night to yourselves! Enjoy!!

Jenny said...

No advice either! I, too, am a worry-wart but you are ahead of the game for me, I've still never been brave enough to let my girls stay over night anywhere without me!

Heidi said...

Thanks Laura and Jenny! It is good to know that I am not alone in my feelings! I know I need to get used to the idea that my babies are going to hurt themselves, whether I'm right there or not. I am learning that a Mom needs to have tough skin, huh?!